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GUYS!!!!

2009-04-28T02:00:00.003-06:00

heyyy everyone ;) long time eh? im thinking of quitting blogging for a while :S even now i cant update! :S lol! im soo busy nowadays.. and i thought being the captain means umm well' i didnt know it was gonna be thiiiiiiiiiis busy :P
but anyway, i realii realii missed you guys!! seriously! sometimes i even feel guilty about not updating :P hehe
you know guys, i even got a trip to go to male'.. for the top ten jalsaa thing! mi school got two prizes! XD it was aweshuuum but that place!! gawd! i was burning there!! :S it was so damn hot!! like, cant they repair the AC for that night?? :S

there's this one poem or song (whatever) i wrote lastnight ^O) for this guy :P hehe (i got a new bf you guys:P but i still havent forgotton mi ex ><)

Its always the same

The sun glows through your window,
you lie awake, not getting up
you think about the previous day
and the day that lies ahead of you

There's no use of getting up
there's no use of going out
no use of going through the everyday stuff
the guilts, the sorrow, and distress
its always the same

his picture comes to your mind
remembering his touch ever so gentle,
his lips ever so soft
and the innocence in his eyes,
you wanna go and hug him tight
but you cant and maybe never will

Cux you're locked inside a cage
trapped like a bird
its not your life, its theirs
they live it for you

So there's no use of getting up
there's no use of going out
no use of going through the everyday stuff
the guilts, the sorrow, and distress
its always the same

he wont wait, but its okay
he deserves much better, he sure does
there's no use of waiting for you, you think
yet you dont wanna let him go

Maybe someday you'll be free
you can run wildly with the others
you can hold him tight and feel euphoric
without any phobia getting in your way
but until then...

There's no use of getting up
there's no use of going out
no use of going through the everyday stuff
the guilts, the sorrow, and distress
its always the same
it always is, the saaaaaaaame!!!

i'll be back you guys! ;) dont forget to miss me :P shitness!! i almost forgot!! its my mock exam days! and may ga edexcel >< gotta learn! ill restart as soon as mi exams are over ;)

Happeee National day =]

2009-02-26T13:16:00.003-07:00

A true Maldivian,
a true civilian,
facing the dangers,
without hesitation,
to achieve victory
and making history

This is what we call, a true maldivian is.. right guys?
a lil too late to wish dho =] hehe a very happy national day to you all =D
boy am i tired! ive been working my ass off making preparations and arrangements for school.. and besides that, my mommi and daddikinss left to male' with my big bro Ahu (i miss him so much! =( ) which means aside from school work, i got housework too =p hehe im already a mother at the age of 18 =p

anyway, there was an amazing show in mi school this morning and there was a hingaalun in this island.. i had fun..
hope you guys did too! gawwd im soo sleepy =| but i just cant close my eyes!! HELLPPP!!

Im BACK!!!

2009-02-19T07:32:00.004-07:00

heyy my bloggy friendss!!! ive been away for a loooooooong time huh.. ive been really reallyyy busyy!! =\ The past few weeks had been THE most hectic days of my whole entire life!!! =|
Firstly, im now the captain of Muhibbudhin School =D isnt it awesome? Hope you guys all know which school that is.. Thats one of the best schools of Maldives, so you should know ingey!!! =P

I know in the above pic we all look a lil dumb and stupid =P but really, we were all given a surprise so we were all pretty shaken up there.. The six of us hadnt known what our posts were and we were given speeches to practise, speeches to give in the assembly's and in meetings to get votes, interviews.....! It was all crazy.. Everyday we had to wake up at five to catch our buses at six, to get to school at seven =p pretty hectic huh =) but i guess it was worth it =D

GUYS!! i really wished all my friends were there that night =| I never even in my weirdest dreams or nightmares saw myself as the captain of the school.. scratch that, i never saw myself as the captain of ANY school! i even made a bet with loads of other students that i wouldnt be the captain.. and now i ended up paying most of my friends interval money for a week =P hehe seriouslY!!!

That night when finally the three students name from the right were called, the two on the right including me were going crazy wondering whose name would be called next,, When Saruwan, the boy on the left, name was called, me and Aisha (the girl on the left) held our hands and i kept on telling Aisha not to worry and that she would be the one, when the supervisor holding our name tags gave the next tag to her (Deputy School Captain Girls) I almost fainted!!! hehe i remember saying 'Oh My God' that minute.. =$

After Aisha, my name was called, (God i know i know this post is long, but the night is THE best night annd i cant stop myself from telling you guys.. please dont mind huh=) and as i entered, everybody stood up and started clapping, the band started playing the tune 'Congratulations and Celebrations' and two cadets holding the flag lead me to the stage where i was given the sash of school captain.. =\ and as i looked at the parents, teachers, all the big people and other invitees i saw my mother crying.. She was so proud of me.. i wanted to cry and smile at the same time.. cux it has always ALWAYS been a dream of me to see my mother cry for being over-proud of me.. i mean, she used to cry for my big bro ahu, he was the one with all the achievements before.. and now me.. =| did that sentence make sense?

After getting off the stage, when i met mother, she hugged me really tightly and started crying.. infront of the whole school!!! but i wasnt the least bit embarrased, i was so DAMN proud =D

OK OK.. enough with all my proudness =p hows all my bloggy friends??? i really really missed you guys and blogging... and asides from the school work, after getting home, i spend my time with my bro Ahu who came back from China three weeks ago but is now gonna leave next week =( im gonna be SO bored =S

Anyway, this is what has been happening in my life... I know its not much but it does MEAN alot right??

● Forgetting

2009-01-23T00:06:00.001-07:00

I wanna forget him for the rest of my life,
dont wanna have these feelings even for awhile,
time to stop all these endless sleepless nights,
just wanna make my life a lil bright.

The day he left me, i was dreaded with fear,
he couldnt hold himself back, even for a liar,
feeling completely empty with despair,
with unfulfilled needs of love and desire.

Had hoped he'd come back to me,
asked for forgiveness if ive done something wrong to thee,
wanted to fill his empty spaces of need,
guess fate proved we were never meant to be..

● Heyyyyyyy =)

2009-01-13T11:47:00.005-07:00

Hey guys n dolls!! Missing my postss? ;) hehe I've been busy, with school and everything.. It's still boring :T but who knows, it might be alotta fun soooooon dho!! Ekam anekka more n MORE ruless:|

Guess what i've been upto these days.. Siteseeing, launch rides, long walks, dancing, singing, watching movies..with my cousin hathu, right here in addu^.^ hehe I've had SOO much fun and now that she left for male',im like, totally missing her :( And she wont be back for another 3 or 4 years :|

(me, hatss.. on the launch, sun above us -hotness- wind blowing our hair.. all in all, F U N=p)

So anyway, kihinehtha all my bloggyy fwendss?!!=D hope everything's fine and cool ^.^ have loaaaaadss of fun and keep smiling =)

● A love story

2009-01-05T08:58:00.004-07:00

This is a story of a boy and a girl
The girl who had given so much,
for the boy he couldn't give anything in return
It was he, who wanted her first,
Had waited patiently two months before she finally said yes
For her he was the man to call her own
And for him, she was the girl next door, as he said
She never asked for more
Whatever he did, was adequate
Because he was perfect, perfect for her
But little did she know,
there was someone else,
to make this story, a love triangle.
For the boy, both were treacherous
He didn’t want to leave neither.
And like every other girl,
she believed in every lie he fed her.
even when he made his excuse of leaving town,
to hang out with his friends,
when he simply left to spend time with the other girl.
After coming back,
the girl realized this was not the guy she loved,
He had changed, enough to bring tears to her eyes
And it was not even a month later,
when she came to learn the hurtful truth.
But she still didn’t believe any of them,
Because she believed in her man,
He would never do it to her,
But he did. And sadly, everything was over
Dark nights and lonely days started surrounding her
She still believed he must have a reason behind all this,
Even if her friends or the whole world disagreed,
She knew he loved her once, at least
and she was still ready to forgive.
Hoping and still waiting, she yearned for him to come back
She had hoped for so much, had dreamed a lot
But in the end, she was left alone, in her dark world
where she still weeps for her love to come back.

●I'll stand by you

2009-01-04T11:18:00.004-07:00

(dedicated to my lil cuxin naba)

Oh dear girl,
why are you so unhappy?
don't you regret honey
i can see it through your eyes
something is definitely bothering you

Is everything alright?
how come you are being silent
this is so not you
tell me what is wrong
and i'll stand by you

Are you feeling lonely?
Are you afraid of anything?
Just tell me sweety
I won't let anybody hurt you
I'll stand by you

HAPPYY NEW YEAR bloggerss!!

2008-12-31T11:49:00.001-07:00

Hey guys n dolls!! Wish all of you a vereee happy new year => may this year be filled with exciting umm, everything =D
Be well, Live well and Do well.. Forget the past and look forward to everything new!! Make this year a happy ending to your fairytale life =] Make it worthwhile. The year 2008 would be an year to remember. Sweet memories!! I met you guys this year too 6.6.. And now im like, addicted to you and blogging, hehe. Love you all!

PS => A very happyy birthday to my dear mommyy! Love you soooo much.. you are the bestEST mother ever!!

Kisses and huggyyzz

R.I.P Elysian

2008-12-30T10:26:00.004-07:00

Elysian (Ely)
Birthdate = 13th November
Gender = Male
color = Light Blue, White, Light Yellow
Height = 7 inches
Weight = unknown
Owner = Afsah Shafeeu (lil bro)
Hobbies =Flying around the cage, chirping, eating bimbi, bobbing it's head, disturbing Taylor (green parrot)

I woke up early, and as usual went to feed the parrots, Taylor and Elysian. But when i got there, instead of finding a chirping Ely, i found it lying on the cage with it's eyes half awake, body trembling, wings weak... and it was making the worst sound i ever heard.. i wish i could describe it but m totally out of words.
Anyway, me and my mommy took it out of the cage and took it to the sunlight, and then tried feeding water to it. It did drink several times but not much. After awhile, it started moving and opened it's eyes. That's when we realized that there was a thin line of blood beneath it's eyes. Taylor and Ely might have gotten into a fight!!! o.O ( do parrots fight?)
Just when we thought Ely was recovering, it made a howling type of noise, just imagine a bird crying on it's deathbed. A weak chirp. A final Chirp. And it closed it's eyes forever :( I never thought i'd be sad when an animal or any kind of creature dies.. but i was, i am.
We buried Ely under a coconut palm this morning. I know this sounds funny, but we've had the parrots for a long time and we are very attached to it.
I miss Ely.. Taylor doesn't chirp, and it's kinda boring.. It just sits on the swing doing nothing. But i'm sure it's missing Ely

R e s t i n p e a c e ELYSIAN

Waiting for a call

2008-12-29T11:12:00.003-07:00

Lying down on my bed
staring at the ceiling
grasping my phone firmly
waiting desperately for a call
hoping to hear his voice inside my ear...

I was secretly thrilled
when he told me he would call
cuz it has been days since i last heard him
so here i am,
waiting for the last two hours
and he still hasn't called

I opened my phone once again
hoping there might be a text message
but no, no new messages, no miss calls
i look at the clock to see numbers staring back
4 in the morning..!

So i lie awake
still thinking and hoping
maybe he might call me
but no, another morning rose before me
with me still clutching the phone
and sadly, no calls from him...

Goodbye

2008-12-24T09:59:00.001-07:00

Oh baby, you've kept me waiting
waiting again...
This is deja-vu for me
no no NO!
I can't take this anymore.
This is too much for me to bear
You can't make me stay
No, not anymore.
It's hard leaving you baby!
I'll miss all your warmth and kisses,
I'll miss the nights we spent together,
I'll miss everything..
This decision was tough to make
but i should have taken it a long time ago..

Baby you tell me you still love me,
you tell me you still miss me
but why can't i feel them all?
You tell me you made the wrong decision,
when you left me and picked her
are you still lying to me?
Yes, if you had truly loved me,
you would never have given me up,
no matter what comes in-between!
I'm tired of listening to all your excuses
I'm sick of seeing you with your 'gal'
do you even realize how hurt it makes me?

This is it for me,
no more waiting for your calls,
no more expecting you'd come back to me,
no more of your excuses i wanna hear.
go back to your life and live happily,
i won't interfere, i won't be a burden
just as long as you are happy,
i can live.
but i still love you, and i always will...
how much it hurts,
i don't want you to know
I'll live in this silent world of mine
goodbye..!

My deaaar brother ^^

2008-12-22T11:52:00.001-07:00

m missing you soo much:( you've been gone for a long time. 10 months!! 10 months vejje bro nufennathaa!(except with that lil web cam which works 2 hours every ''week'')! o_O i miss all those bike rides we go on every evening. i miss your loud banging on the door if i'm too late opening it. i miss all those times we spend fooling around, laughing and joking at everyone in sight :P i miss your crazy ideas and the goofy attitude you have.

But my waiting days are finally over oa!! you are coming back!!! I can't wait to see you.. i jus want you to know that you are the best brother anyone could ever have, n that i love you very much!!

Countdown already began. ^^ miss you lotss!!

2008-12-20T10:56:00.000-07:00

The fault is mine,
and it has always been.
The result of being incredulous-Ly gullible,
kept on ending me in messes; inevitable.
Never thought life would be unfair,
but it is, and I'm left with despair...

A rainy day

2008-12-19T04:27:00.000-07:00

On a dark rainy day like today,
imagining yourself as the character of a book
could be an excitement and definitely fascinating
A day like this, could probably lead you
into a hidden wardrobe, like 'NARNIA'
You might encounter the ghost of a dead girl,
who bears an eerie resemblance to you...
The unlocking of several mysteries,
while going through your dark old attic..
The unexpected visiting of a stranger,
which in the end, happens to be;
the prince charming you've been waiting for...
Yes, the possibilities are endless,
for a main character stuck home on a rainy day

Bored!!

2008-12-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

hey guys and dolls! I'm like, soo bored here in my little room :/ I'm supposed to be sleeping but i can never, EVER sleep until hours.. Sometimes I think I've got insomnia:S
God! This is probably the most boring holiday ever..! My dad is too busy and we couldn't go abroad or anywhere, not even to male'.. Addu is boring with a capital "B". Nothing exciting happens here. Well, except for a gang fight at times. I hate violence:S But i like it when everybody in the island gets together and keeps on chattering and chattering and chattering;which is exactly what happens when there is a fight. Hehe.. Heyy, it's not that bad!!:P

Schoolves feshenee dho.. :S Don't get me wrong.. I used to love school-ALOT! But there's this new principal in my school, and he keeps on making new rules every single day :S I seriously hate rules :@ I don't think anybody likes it..

so anyway, I think I better lie down before my mom sees me:/ (I'm not supposed to get online or surf the internet after 12 -My mom's rule :P) hehe goodnight world :) have a great day ahead! Take care^^
PS=> misshin yu M!!!

*XOXOXOXOX*

Come BACK!

2008-12-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

Your thoughts surround me,
Every morning after i wake up
Every night before i sleep
Every dream that i imagine
Every time i see the moon
Every breeze that i feel
and every where i go...
C O M E B A C K

Just as long as we are together

2008-12-11T10:48:00.000-07:00

i know how you feel at the moment
feeling depressed and broken
feeling all the pain, all alone

im sorry you feel that way
i feel bad just knowing what you are going through
i know im to be blamed too

the way i feel guilty for blaming you in the first place
even when i knew you wouldn't do it...
yet you forgive me

never went through this before
i know you did not either
and i feel happy, we've solved everything finally

i know you'll never forget this and neither will i
but we did realize that we can face any risk,
just as long as we are together

My best friend

2008-12-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

Days are so crazy
when I'm with you
Days are so boring
when you leave

You, my best friend
i just wanted to remind you
that i love you so much
and thank god everyday
for giving me someone amazing!

you've been my strength forever
you help me when I'm clueless
you hug me when i cry
you laugh at my not-so funny jokes
you make me smile anytime of the day

We are the bestEST friends ever,
so just as long as we are together,
nothing could ever go wrong

Eid Mubarik!!!

2008-12-07T10:59:00.000-07:00

Hey guys n dolls! EID MUBAARIK!!
Guys! Tomorrow you've to wake up at dawn for your EID prayers ;P so better start getting into your nighty's ;p
DOLLS!! make something reaallyy good for the guys when they get back from the prayers:P most of the time they are either moody or sleepy or just their self :P

Its the time of the year
when we get to see our close-ones
who we haven't seen for awhile.

Its the time of the year,
when guys wake up first
and drag their legs to the mosques

Its the time of the year,
when we all dress up in the evening
and rule the roads

Its the time of the year,
when the table has space for all
and when delicious foods are served

Its the time of the year,
when love, dreams and hopes
are being shared

Its the time of the year,
I say EID MUBARIK to everyone
with no exception!!

Happiness to sorrow

2008-12-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

You feel so lucky
when you finally meet the guy of your dreams
you feel so happy
when he stands on his knees and expresses his love
you feel so special
when he holds you and kisses you
you feel so great
when you know someone's missing you
you feel so lonely
when he has to leave
you feel betrayed
when you feel ignored and left all alone
you feel heartbroken
when you find out he left you for another girl
you feel sad and depressed
when you feel there's no one out there for you...

The smiling sky ^^

2008-12-04T01:42:00.000-07:00

(1st December 2008, 18:15-20**:)
THE most amazing view^^

Confused

2008-12-02T03:51:00.000-07:00

I look at you
to see your eyes drifting away from me
i take your hands
to find you pull it back towards you

I ask you what is wrong
is everything alright?
but all you do is just get up
make an excuse and walk away

i sit, alone
wondering what had happened to us
i hold back the tears
while thinking back when it was just you and me

We both started out great
hand in hand we used to walk on the beach
goodnight kisses on the doorstep of my house
i assumed we would last forever

Still confused and musing
i write this poem
wishing you'd come back to hold me
and tell me you love me

I can survive...

2008-11-28T11:13:00.000-07:00

Hey hey boy
what did you think
what did you say
i can live without you
i don't need your presence
never, not anymore

You thought i'd live suffering
sure you made me cry
but all that's over for me now
i have a life too
which i can live without you

Go on now
hang out with your friends
flirt with all the girls around
cheat on your next girlfriend
but i don't care
cux i can live without you

So good riddance boy
I've entered a whole different world
a whole new life
but im not suffering
cux i can live without you

M.E (2)

2008-11-26T02:12:00.000-07:00

Another poem from my 'Admirer' ;p

Everywhere people with destinations
Every person has his own ambition
Every time when I look at them I'm ashamed
Every second I try and look for mine

I too dreamt about my wishes
But it is just a dream than nothing
If I had the world I would have left
For the sake of her single smile
Still never were pleased than regret

Time can make me happy
Time can give me sadness
Time can even bend my knees with pain
But I seldom experience the happiness

I still want be a good man
Because I have learnt to tolerate
I look forward for my day
I pray to win her in my both lives

I miss you my love

TO GOD

2008-11-23T07:58:00.000-07:00

I apologize for what I've been and for what I've done
for not praying the five musts and never reciting
for staying up all night and sleeping till late in the afternoon
for making up stories to feed and all the lies I've said
for ignoring what people say and never give a damn
for knowing what i do is bad but still continue and never care
for saying all those unnecessary things whenever i get angry...

For all the people I've ignored
for all the lies I've said i apologize
To God,.. I'm truly sorry

To God, I'm vowing,
I'd pray, recite and help everyone if i can
I'd forget the sins I've made and start a new life
I'd listen to anybody, if what they are saying is for my own good
I'd be a good daughter, a good student, a good girl
I'd be a good friend, and be there when they need me
I'd make sure i fulfill all these promises..
And to God, i vowed

The art of life, is the art of avoiding pain

2008-11-18T01:52:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine had very recently lost the only person he fell in love with. She was his happiness and comfort in every way. They had every little thing in common. For eleven months, they shared their hopes, dreams, pain, care and love to each other. But it was after the eleven months the girl started getting far from him. And much to my friend's horror, the girl broke up with him. According to what my friend told me, the girl had been dating another boy. My friend's world came crashing down on him, he felt as if the sky has fallen over him, as if a tornado struck him n and took his happiness away from him. He was hurt, very much. He started getting depressed over anything and everything. He started caring less and less about himself and the rest of the world. He also made suicidal attempts some way or the other. For him, the girl is everything, and now when she's gone;everything's gone, life is over, he is lost...
I'm still convincing my friend to move on and that there is more to life than the girl he loved. I keep telling him that he might meet someone much better than her. But he believes me NOT. He had vowed to himself that he would never date a girl nor fall in love.
I just wish one day he'd understand that there are other people in this world who care more about him and love him more than the girl had ever did. Life isn't over just because you lost your love. When one door of happiness closes, another door opens. It's up to us seek it, settle and move on. Something good always happens after a bad thing. I really hope my friend would get over his ex-girlfriend someday. It's not easy to see someone who's so dearly, suffering. This is not only my wish, his friends and family expects the same from him.

My Destiny

2008-11-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

He made an entrance to my life,
when everything was dark
and life was filled with despair.
We started out as friends, and we still are
But we both know, we want more...
Old days are starting to feel like history
They seem to be slipping out of my mind,
not as fast as the wind, but rapidly.
It's always nice to know and nice to feel,
that someone out there thinks about you
Every night, i lay my head back against the pillow
imagining how my life would be with you,
and continuously playing songs which reminds me of you
Life is not over, not even after painful experiences
There's always something ahead of you
Everything happens for a reason, for good...
And your entering to my life, is what i believe my destiny now
Felicity is what i wish for both of us

if the world could only see

2008-11-13T06:49:00.000-07:00

the dead end it has come to, 
the tranquility and the serenity it has lost,
the severe abuses and hostile attitude towards it, 
the green life of it reducing at a rapid speed...  

but even if the world does see, 
there's nothing it could possibly attain to, 
it has long gone everything, 
every life of pleasure, every life of hope  

the unbearable thought of us being the closest; 
and not even giving a hand, nor raising a finger, 
despite the utter failure of our world with despair, 
is truly despicable and a shame.

The Sunset

2008-11-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

As the sunsets over the horizon
i look at the sky
with a smile i can never hide

Even when alone, i still feel you
its true, distance can separate us
but never our hearts
i feel your presence
wherever i am

I remember the days we met
gloomy days i have said
but that was then
my life has now changed
and its only because of you

The love you've shown me
the care you've given me
the feeling of just being with you
is what i believe, my luck now

I promise you my love,
no matter how far i am
how far I've to go
ill still be yours

My love for you
the undying faith for you
will never change

The sunset over the horizon
i look at the sky
with a smile i can never hide

Friends

2008-11-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

My mother always tells me
not to judge my friends
by their appearance,
Looks are nothing
compared to what they've got inside
Being black or being fat doesn't matter
as long as they are there for you
any time of the day, anywhere..
They stand beside you
no matter how far you've to go
When weekends arrive
its mostly them, who keep you awake
When a crisis arises,
its always them who comes to you first
No matter how worse it is,
how long they've to keep waiting,
they look up to you,
and make sure you are safe and happy
Friends are what they call gems

M.E

2008-11-06T14:04:00.000-07:00

This is a poem i got from an admirer... It's so true and amazing that i couldn't stop myself from publishing it..Who knows whats so special on Friday?
She sits near the highway with her relatives
Facing the road but god knows if she is
Either enjoying the nature or fooling the time to make it short

I cross the road couple of times with my friends.
Sometimes i see that she raise her lips to smile
So I assumed she looks at me but when she turned to her friends
I feel ashamed then my friends ask me do i feel alright.

I said yes "every Friday is pleasant and its two eid for me"

I believe I'm a thief coz I stole her id from a friend of mine
But i agree that she is kind as she accepted my friendship though
I am a stranger, I slowly started to share my feelings with her
Felt like she began to understand still she never did disclosed any of hers

She reply back short messages with a smiley face
And it makes my life tough to proceed with the conversations
I know the whole world would bent if she wished
However I always understood that she won't get closed to me

She writes painful poems and people does like it
I feel so worried as if were real she'd be suffering a lot
I did never introduced myself to her because I don't had confidence

My mind knows that each and every single cell of my body needs her
My lips are hungered for touch
My body is need to feel her

Oh poor me, I love you so much

A MINUTE AGO...

2008-11-06T00:11:00.000-07:00

The night's starless, with a half moon,
you feel the wind struggling to get past you,
making low howling noises...

there's a murderer out there tonight
the murderer, you've heard of a million times,
you know he is around here, somewhere...

you kept on moving, until you see a figure,
a figure coming towards you,you stop where you are,
getting adjusted to the darkness, to see clearly...

you see him, it's the murderer,
alone on the road, you both stand,
staring at each other, not moving an inch...

you want to shout,
shout for help, but you know
it's too late for that now...

eying the sharp end of his knife,
the knife, which you speculate,
would be the end of you, any second...

may god bless each and every soul,
the world has been a great deal of excitement
it has been wonderful, the memories...

it's time to say goodbye, you think
silent tears, slowly stroke down your cheeks,
and you close your eyes, hoping for a miracle...

nothing happened, not for awhile,
slowly you open your eyes,
to see, the murderer leaving...

you wanted to run after him,
ask him why he had stopped,
but you stop yourself, feeling it was stupid...

you watch until you see his shadow disappear,
and turn around, turning to leave,
still wondering, whatever had happened,
a minute ago...

I DON'T KNOW

2008-11-05T08:22:00.000-07:00

A trip

2008-11-05T03:19:00.000-07:00

A few days ago, my family and I went on a trip to Herathera resort. Here are some pics I took.. Hope u like it :)A picture of the beach from our room

My footstep :P

My kokko writin both our names on the sand

Kokko and my shadow

My favourite pic...

L.O.V.E

2008-10-08T00:05:00.000-06:00

Falling in love,
can either be hazardous
or tremendous...
Either you get betrayed
or you live happily ever after...
It's easier to break a heart,
while it's harder to mend it...
So why do people fall in love?
Even when they are clueless,
about what's gonna happen tomorrow...
I know every girl wants a man to call her own,
and a lady for every other guy...
Sometimes people get so desperate,
that they don't care who they end up with,
either to show off or just desperate...
Why don't you look out people?
Be a little aware...
Try to find out the right person for you,
not the perfect.

Please come back to me..

2008-10-03T12:45:00.000-06:00

Wherever i look
whenever i blink
all i can see is your face
staring back at me
with the smile i always loved
and eyes i long to keep staring at

I remember the days
when we used to walk hand in hand
i had hoped everything to last forever
that nothing could be better than;
staying in the comfort of your arms
but i was wrong..

All the memories seem to fade away
away with the wind you flew
leaving me alone with despair
in a dark deserted place
where everyone z a stranger to me
and where no one's to hold me when i weep

Nobody had said it was easy
no one had ever said it would be so hard
but this is what i want, what i need
come back to me and hold me
oh! lets go back to the start

The Shooting Star

2008-10-03T01:58:00.000-06:00

How i wish i could be a shooting star
flying freely from place to place
with sparkles and twinkles lightening the black sky.
how i wish i could be a shooting star
with all the faces looking up at me
and closing their eyes preparing to make a wish
opening them again to see it disappear

In the end...

2008-09-19T14:22:00.001-06:00

you promised for love
you promised for care
made vows to hold me forever
made vows to be with me for eternity
but in the end, you couldn't give me anything but pain!

Happiness

2008-09-15T10:41:00.000-06:00

your eyes,
when looking at me,
drowns me to the depths of the ocean.

your lips,
when kissing me,
makes me forget everything and anything around me.

your hands,
when holding mine,
makes my fingers tingle with magic.

your words,
when talking to me,
makes me feel overwhelmed by love.

your arms,
when wrapped around me,
makes me feel safe and forever happy.

Addicted..

2008-09-14T15:07:00.000-06:00

You make me feel so special with your words,
I feel as if I'm addicted to you,
Since you stepped into mi life,
there's no turning back..
I'm crazily in love with you n I wont let you down,
I'm trying my best to keep you happy and smiling forever..
because you mean so much to me…
I know I just cant live without you anymore..
Whenever I think of you,
I long to be with you,
and whenever I'm with you,
I wish the time would stop running:)
I guess now I know how crazy lovers feel,
I'll love you forever 
I know you will too..

Misery

2008-09-14T15:01:00.000-06:00

Endless sleepless nights,
deep with misery and frustrations,
hurt with all the uncertain promises he made,
and now he's gone.

Happy days it had been,
life was filled with hope and dreams,
but every candle of hope burned away,
and now he's gone.

The feeling of emptiness in me,
don't seem to know what's going on,
feeling completely lost and clueless,
cux now he's gone.

Remembering our endless conversations,
from morning till night,
missing his warm hand on mine,
but now, he's gone.

Sooner or later, he'll be back,
but it still won't be late,
cux im here, i'll always be,
but now.... he's gone

Loneliness

2008-09-14T14:55:00.000-06:00

when the day is done,
when it's time to go home,
looking at others,
i feel the loneliness overcoming.

why does everyday has to be like this?
why did you have to leave?
weren't our days perfect?
wasn't all that enough for you?

my nights, more darker each day,
my days more longer,
my hunger to be with you,
my longness for you to come back...

where had it all started?
had it been my fault?
am i the one to be blamed?
why can't we be together like before?

baby, come back to me..
i'll give you everything you need,
even more if you are in need..
we'll never look back again
and we'll forever be..

If I'd never met you...

2008-09-14T14:51:00.000-06:00

If I’d never met you,
I wouldn’t feel the pain
Of losing your sweet love;
I wouldn’t feel insane.

But if I’d never met you,
I wouldn’t know the pleasure
Of ecstasy’s warm gifts
And memories to treasure.

Now moving on with life,
I force a wistful grin,
Questioning what went wrong
And wondering what might have been.